Tossing and turning

Trigger Warning mentions abuse, feeling suffocating sadness, stress, nightmares, and pain and fears with feelings of uselessness.

This poem just came to me, but it all describes how I have been feeling. Looking at it after writing it I recognize that these are feelings that I will be talking to my mental health care provider about, but I want to stress that this isn’t about suicide or feelings of wanting to die. Just general feelings of being sad and afraid

If you or anyone you know are showing signs of feeling suicidal please reach out to a trusted loved one, the new 988 mental health hot line, the crisis text https://www.crisistextline.org/, or if there is imnent danger dial 911 for emergency services.

Tossing and Turning

Tossing and turning

Night after night

Heart is pounding

I wanna take flight

Life is so much better now

Than it ever was before

Yet here I stand

One foot out the door

Tossing and turning

I get no restful sleep

All my fears are suffocating

Can’t shake this pain so deep

I’m no longer being abused

My burden is considerably less

My cute little puppy

Nestled snug on my chest

Yet I remain afraid

Yet I remain full of a stress

Yet I remain useless

Yet my mind remains completely a mess.