As life usually does, it has thrown me some curveball this year that I didn’t see coming. I graduated with my BSW in social work Magna Cum Laude, which I guess is a good thing and I made it through my internship at planned parenthood with the only critique for the future being I need to get better at not getting emotional in front of clients.
After graduating from my undergraduate program I found myself without a routine and with no sense of direction. I came to the realization that I didn’t want to work as a licinced clinical socialworker, but that I wanted to do more macro level work helping communities of people, mine and others. Then I was reading through possible colleges for master’s degrees and I came across the master’s in soviet and public policy with an avaliable specialization in community advocacy. It all seemed perfect, so I applied in 2024 and got accepted in 2024.
I made it through my first semester and I did really well, but in my second semester, this one that just finished, I was behind on every assignment and even though I was getting great marks on the work I was turning in, I was no longer passionate about it because the field wasn’t what I was expecting and on top of that I was experiencing burn out from school and compassion fatigue from home.
I was placing everyone’s needs above my own and not asking for help when I needed it, and whenever I had free time within the craziness I spent it resting or distracting myself instead of focusing on work I needed to go. By the semesters half way point, I was extremely overwhelmed so I spoke to my advisor and others who led the graduate school I was in, and we came up with the idea for me to put in for a leave of absence that’s starts in the spring semester of 2026 and goes until the spring semester of 2027.
At the end of the leave I am supposed to decide if I want to stay enrolled in my graduate school and restart the classes i dropped, or if I want to completely step away from the program for good. I think I know what choice I want to make now, but im ordering myself to take the full year before I make any hasty decisions.
All that was left to do was to drop out of the current classes I was taking so the paperwork could go through. So I did that and now im back ehere I was before I started the degree program, without a clear routine and directionless. But I don’t plan to stay that way. This next year, and tge rest of the days in our current year im going to truly live my life to the fullest. Im going on healing and growing adventures, leisure, and restful adventures, and learning and inspiration seeking adventures, with some healthy doses of therapy, and properly taking my current treatments.
I know I probably don’t have any kind of following anymore since its been so long since I’ve been active on any of my blogs or socials, but that gives me a chance to start semi freshly and provide something worth following.
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